Friday, 12 September 2008

Feeling Blue

Yea...I've been feeling uncharacteristically melancholic...too many emotions running amok and and I have a lot rummaging through my thoughts. I cant narrow them down to something in particular. I hate this feeling and to make matters worse a lot of sad love songs have been playing in my head but this feelings go beyond love. It definitely has to do with much more than that. I am a Christian but yesterday I felt like seeing a clairvoyant, a palm reader or anything, anyone just for a quick fix answer.

I feel like I'm involved in some sort of waiting game, what for I dont have a tiny clue and at this point am singing Brandy's Almost Doesn't Count

Almost made you love me
Almost made you cry
Almost made you happy, baby
Didn't I didn't I
You almost had me thinkin'
You were turned around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

Almost heard you saying
You were finally free
What was always missing for you, baby
You'd found it in me
But you can't get to heaven
Half off the ground
Everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

I can't keep on lovin' you
One foot outside the door
I hear a funny hesitation
Of a heart that's never really sure
Can't keep on tryin'
If you're looking for more
Than all that I could give you
Than what you came here for

Gonna find me somebody
Not afraid to let go
Want a no doubt be there kind of man
You came real close
But everytime you built me up
You only let me down
And everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

Maybe you'll be sorry
Maybe you'll be cold
Maybe you'll come runnin' back, baby
From the cruel cruel world
Almost convince me
You're gonna stick around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

So maybe I'll be here
Maybe I'll see ya 'round
That's the way it goes
Almost doesn't count

Almost doesn't count...for love, career, family, everything...and right now, I feel all am getting is almost.

When will the fullness come?

26 comments:

Red Sapphire said...

aaawwww! parakeet...it going to be alrite....u of all peeeppps should know that...i'll be praying for u....we all go thru this kinda feeling...it will pass in no time...abeg no palm reading oh!...before they start seeing unnecessary visions now...wait on God as u've alwys done, i guarantee u it will count majorly at the end...
somebody call aunty rita...parakeet is feeling blue...

Red Sapphire said...

That girl sang some deep stuff there in that song...
i hope u're not blocking our comments oh parakeet...shey u no say we care/....

kmplx said...

my first first?

Jarrai said...

Hey you..move away from that blue ray...

Almost definately does not count when it comes to anything...however sometimes it gives us a clear perspective in realising what it is that we really want

Chin up girl..

Red Sapphire said...

Parakeet...listen to brandy's latest single....Right here(departed) pls if u can..should think its better than whats playing in ur head....

kmplx said...

:( not my first "first". anyways now that i have read the damn post and gotten over it not being my first "first".
chin up, head up, and just say "yay" for what you have so far... that would be someone else's almost.

Shubby Doo said...

when things are 'not finite'...they will always seem like 'almost'...

you are a christian...you know his love for you is 'infinite'... sweetie trust in him that things will work out...as in love, work family, everything...

just take some time out...see what things look like tonight/2mrrw with a different mindset.

try & think positive thoughts sweetie...

doll said...

Be patient babes, it will surely come

aloted said...

hmm...it is well with u...and i am sure you know that everything is working out for ur good..just keep trusting in God, hold on to his promises and dont stay down..plsssssssssssssss

ShonaVixen said...

hey hon...yes almost doesnt count! But heey instead of this blue song why not listen to some T.I. feat Rihanna - Live Your Life...a bit more upbeat...
Nway keep smiling, keep shining, knowing you can always count on us, for sure, for thats what friends are for!!!

Afrobabe said...

Wow...you?? snap out of it love...same thing you always tell me...come on snap out of it...maybe we should go get drunk this weekend???

Afrobabe said...

Read this blog to cheer up...I haven't been able to stop laughing since I did...

http://ablackjamesbond.com/?p=108

Free-flowing Florida said...

just dis morning i was singing 2 dis song along with brandy. & guess wot, i actually tot of u & one dude dat afro mentioned one day like dat. amazing isn't it?

Parakeet said...

@Red...your comment made me smile. Thanks love. I'll be fine. And yesm Brandy is ace so am going to listen to that song u recommended.
@Aww...not first o, but true talk. We just have to learn to be greatful for what we have.
@Jarrai..you're right abt that. Many thanks.
@Shubs...thanks for reminding me of that. I need more of people like you around me.
@Doll...thanks babes
@aloted...you;re a star. Thanks.
@Shona...thanks darling. You rock. am def gogoling that song tonight
@Afro...make I pratice weytin I preach ba? I'll try. getting drunk aint a bad idea except me cant handle alcohol. I read 007's blog and laffed no be small. Sometimes they wonder if am going crazy at work. I too dey laff
@FFF...Dont say? He's part of the reasons am feeling blue now sef. It is well with my soul. Thanks my dears.

Free-flowing Florida said...

my dear, do hang in there. days like dis happen. den u wake up & feel "i've got a mightily good deal after all"

Standtall said...

It's all right, it's okay, we gonna feel fine any way. Move on dear is the best.... Am I singing?

Rita said...

Parakeet dear...what can i say...lots of things have been happening around you and you are only human to feel the way you do..I'm sorry I cannot offer any soothing words at this moment...but one thing I remember is Oluwadee's message "Guard Your Heart" and if I am to apply it in your situation it will be "stay away from anything (song, book, movie, people) that will make you sadder"

May the peace and joy of God rest in you...

Standtall said...

BTW, Rita has something to say about u on my blog

Ms Sula said...

Hey Lady... We all go through those moments. And I actually think it's pretty healthy to sit down,take stock and reassess.

I usually equate it to skin shedding. It might hurt, might feel really uncomfortable but at the end, you have a beautiful shiny new skin. Something to look forward to.

I was just in such a period and it lasted longer than I wanted. All the while, I kept asking/wondering what exactly am I doing wrong and looking at things from several different angles. I haven't had any obvious answers as of now but I'm feeling a lotvbetter which means I just needed to go through the process...

Hang in there dearie, this too shall pass

ibiluv said...

soooooooooooooonnnnnnnn

cos its here now
receive it!!!!!!!!!

chichi said...

*big warm snuggable hug* to you my dear. it is wot it is sometimes, as cliche as dis is hang in there -u will come full circle; its just a phase babes! muwah!xxx

isha said...

HUGZ!!! Love songs always have a -ve effect expecially when you're down already. do something fun with your friends this weekend. take your mind off stuff and don't be alone.
all the best!

30+ said...

This song does bring memories and I have sang it a few melancholic times myself.

30+ said...

Like everyoneelse said we all go through moments like that so just chill.

DON'T DRINK you wake up with the hangover and the melancholic feelings.

NigerianDramaQueen said...

Everything good will come.
Maybe it's time to do some 'brain-cleaning'. Have some Parakeet time to sort through your thoughts...
Hope you feel better! Muah...xx

Parakeet said...

@ALL...I feel so blessed to have you all. A million thanks for all the inspiration.